Personal Practice

Weekly Log #15: We’re All Mad Here

My weekly ritual for looking at my the week that was.

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Another late log. I am clearly in one of my “moods”, so I’m doing the best I can.

This week contained a lot of “dealing with other people’s madness”. Not the “good” kind of madness, ie: the creative kookiness, but rather the madness that leads to serious problems in this planet. (problems that only I can see, apparently)

Let’s log.

  • Tons of stressing over a Big Thing I went for. A thing I didn’t really want, but which would have made a big difference and would have granted me security and stability. Lots of preparing for this thing. And then I didn’t get it.
  • Serious internal work in preparation for said Big Thing, which lead me to important insights into “What Truly Matters”. The secret is to stay connected to What Truly Matters.
  • Dealing with bullsh*t. Cannot believe the extent of the bullsh*t. People who are not me seem to have a much, much higher tolerance for bullsh*t, and it is hard to not see this intolerance as the biggest obstacle to my existence on this planet.
  • Dealing with other people’s madness. So much madness, and I find it at times reassuring (I’m not the only one who’s mad!) and at times exasperating.
  • Strong suicidal urges. (Note: I am OK). And a humongous meltdown of huge proportions. I am mostly OK, but I do have strong suicidal urges right now.
  • Yoga! Finally! I went to yoga class and it was awesome and I loved it! I’m planning on making it a regular thing.
  • Not writing. In fact, not doing much of anything but just being there. A breath for challenges and the absence of hope and dreams.
  • Moments of Insight

    Everyone is mad.
    No, really, everyone is mad. At least some of the time.

    This is a revelation to me, because I tend to go around thinking I am the only one with internal dramas, the only one who is bonkers.
    But the more I work with my stuff and learn to be OK as I am, in other words, the more I accept myself and my madness, the more I realise that other people are mad too.
    And it-is-shocking.

    May we all learn how to work with out stuff, so that the madness subdues.

    Things of Considerable Worth (Un-missables!)