My weekly ritual for looking at the week that was.

Weekly Log copy

40 weeks and I’m still here. I have no answers, no words, no story right now.
But I am here.
So let’s log.

  • Serious Pranayama Practice! Challenging and powerful, and I am grateful for it, for the healing that I imagine it bringing to me.
  • Going back to the day job. I had no accident this time. Hard. Find myself face to face with the same old stories of “here we are… again…”. I meet these stories with “I have no words”. I no longer have words.
  • I sent my post to my list, and the feedback was… mixed. Challenging, as always.
  • More yoga in the mornings, because it’s warm and Hell yeah!
  • Not very productive, not writing much, no doing… anything. I don’t have words, I don’t have a story, and I cannot make sense out of my life. I don’t understand what is happening, and I am in emotional pain.
  • Money situation seems momentarily resolved, in a “I can now breathe better” kinda way.
  • Pray. Cry. Meditate. This is what my life looks like. Pray. Cry. Meditate.

Moments of Insight

I want deep connection…
And I am tired of hating people.

That’s all I got this week.

Things of Considerable Worth (Un-missables!)

  • I am reading Martha Beck’s “Finding your way in a wild new world” and enjoying it.


Still here. Still here.
Now I’m going back to Praying. Crying. Meditating.
Because it’s all I can do right now.