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Weekly Log #25: Internal Processing

My weekly ritual for looking at the week that was.

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It’s a New Year.
… I am trying to be impressed by it, by the whole “new slate”, “opportunities” kinda vibe…
I’m not “feeling it”. Not yet.

Let’s log.

  • Days and days of internal processing. Which is a euphemism for “life is not working, and the more I do the more I screw up, so I have nothing to do, nowhere to go, so I’m going to stay in this room, in this bed, processing my internal world”.
  • Exploring with friends. Boots in danger. Boots rescued.
  • Time around others. Witnessing a side of me that is non confrontational and mostly quiet. Also: healing of past stories of not-really-friendship.
  • I found my slippers! And a device to make my life easier (finally)! Plus I found the perfect woolen dress and then I wore it on New Year’s Eve.
  • Spent New Year’s Eve on my own. I cooked. I hang out online with people. I wrote and processed. I ate chocolate biscuits. I listened to Auld Lang Syne and watched the fireworks from the bedroom window.
  • I opened up about my dreams. For the first time ever I am sharing my dreams with people, even if it is in tiny, tiny ways. Yay for progress.
  • More teeth drama. So much teeth drama. A breath for peace.
  • Moment of Absolute Crisis related to Teeth Drama. A breath for not being at the point where there are no Absolute Crisis anymore.

Moments of Insight

I’ve realised what I want.
I want “co-creation, co-partnering with the Universe”.
I want to listen to guidance and instinct, I want to learn and grow, and for that I want to be partnered with the Universe.

So many of the things I want aren’t actually what I want the most: what I really want is making things happen with the Universe. I want things to feel “divine” and “meant to happen”.

I’ve also realised that what I want most is to be able to create and create without a thought in the world. Without caring whether it’s good or whether it makes money or whether people like it. I just want to create and create.

Things of Considerable Worth (Un-missables!)

Have I ever told you about the awesome “Unmistakeable Creative Podcast”? Here are my favourite episodes.

Meg is absolutely awesome, and this is a quote of hers that stayed with me:

“There is great depth of understanding that comes from the process of being hollowed out with grief”


Woo, the first Log of the year!
I am doing so much growing right now. So much transformation.
Here’s to the clarity that comes from it.

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