• Stories of my life,  Working with Stuff

    I Hated Humans. And What I Did Next.

    “I’m going to be alone forever, ain’t I? I am going to be single and alone forever because I just hate other humans.” That’s quite literally what I said. While in a fit of rage, I should add. And then I paused. Let’s me backtrack… I had signed up for Charles Eisenstein’s course. That day, I got assigned a “group”. Yep. The administrators have randomly selected complete strangers for us to hang out with as a group. Together. We can have discussions and share stories… and stuff. So I get my notification “You have been assigned to a group”. I frump. I check out the other members of my group…

  • Help in a crisis

    Falling Apart on Purpose

    After a couple of days of falling apart on and off, I decided it was time to do it properly. And fall apart on purpose. I tidied the room (read: floor), filled a cup with water and grabbed dirty shirt to collect my tears (I knew I was gonna cry). I turned off the lights, put the laptop to sleep, lit a tea light candle on the table… and sat down in front of it, on 2 cushions, while wrapped in a blanket. And so it began. Falling apart on purpose I brought all of the things to the surface, one by one. All the things that are irrevocably “wrong”.…

  • Working with Stuff

    The Fear of Being Single

    Why yes, we are talking about being single. Yet again. It all begun when I run into this article by Sara Eckel. Apparently, the “fear of being single” makes us choose bad partners. Then I was reading Martha Beck’s “Steering by Starlight” and she got to this concept that “you attract people when you are happy and you repel people when you are miserable”. She says: “In a self-critical, fear-based mindset, the clients seem to physically repel people (..) But when my clients managed to hold on to thoughts of being worthy and loveable, others move towards them (…)”. From there on, people make all sorts of wild jumps and…

  • Working with Stuff

    I am single and I’m in pain

    This is one of those rare posts where I show you “live” how I work with my stuff. It’s full of seriously cool and useful concepts. At least 5 things that are Important to Know. First the back story I was in a Facebook conversation on the topic of “Single”. When suddenly I felt *anger*. Now, according to Karla McLaren, anger shows up when our boundaries have been crossed. Since I’m a HSP with very thin boundaries, and since I don’t get angry very often, I have learned to make the best out of my anger when it does show up. That is: I feel the anger, allow it to…